Love is irreplaceable

2012-01-02T01:01:00.001+08:00

I just have to come back to this damn blog that I try to leave to vent down my sorrow.
I'm sorry I am a Cinderella.
A girl with bad records .
You know my story , nO one else knows
You saw through my loneliness.
Others don't
I may not seem lonely anymore
But now I am instilled with even more greater hurt
And you know what it is.
I avoid people that hate / dislike me .
I don't mind them displaying right in their face as long as I stay away from them
Which I usually choose to do so.

But now I am suppose to face something
Something that seems so double face
And act like I wanna get into their good books
When i tried once and got a nasty comment or should I say unpleasant comment.
I am not going todo the same thing again

Cause I looked retarded and I will again

ADELYN HOSEHBOH!

2011-11-03T23:45:00.000+08:00

The recent superstar of the web. The Gen-Z Ahlian.
Sorry but i have pass the era.
14 is like 4 years back.
I know her frustration. I know how much we feel like rebelling when we are at that age.
But slapping your mom is abit too extreme,
Usually it is the other way round, so maybe your brain is twisted so it thinks otherwise.

Your mind is totally insane when you thought about selling your mom's jewelry.
Dint you even think of how she got it? It might have been a gift from someone and it will have been freaking valuable , if not why did she report to the police.
I know the money is like awesome , 8K who doesn't want it.
Dont deny you people out there, those that parents control your allowance like hell.
You will steal a little bit , every now and than, but you will feel guilty wont you?

But this girl, she took 8K worth of jewelry and she aint guilty.
Evidence for you

She spend 2K on her LV wallet.
and 6K worth were stolen away by someone.
If she dint not boast about it, how did other people know about it.
AND HOW DID THEY MANAGE TO GET AWAY WITH THE 6K.

i see that she had deleted her fb accounts.
wise move,
dint you see how many people gave her advice.
This shows how much people out there are willing to give precious advice and still show care for her.

so yeaps, i hope she wake up to her silly ideas.
Being an ahlian wont fill your ricebowl

2011-10-12T00:31:00.001+08:00

Oct 8 <3
my beloved TAP TAP came to my workplace to surprise me.
and they bought a polariod camera for me <3
GOSH, I LOVE THEM SO.

pretty sleepy now, gonna blog longer next time.

nightssss

Legal 18th

2011-10-06T15:42:00.000+08:00

hello everyone !
today is my official 18th birthday,
the day i was born into this world in USA :D

well, had a legal party experience yesterday at powerhouse.
boyf ordered the birthday package. unfortunately we left early and only drank the 2 bottles of whiskey we ordered.
we dint had the cake and the waterfall.
but if we did have, i think there will have been more drunkards.

anyway
had a great afternoon with baby.
went around orchard .
bought ingredients and bought my cake <3
awesome shit,
went back to his house he cooked carbonara and cream mushroom spaghetti for me <3

on the cab home from ion :D

waiting for my dinner <3

dinner prepared specially by my darling <3

HANDSOME CHEF RIGHT !

Next up will be powerhouse photos.
all before we threw up. HAHAH.

thanks big bro for the macaroons which dont know went to where <3

thanks boy for everything <3

ending off with a super epic picture of the night !

October love

2011-10-03T01:23:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone, october lerh !
It's the month for libras, and it's my birthday month (Y)
yesterday did nothing much.

worked till 3plus, went to supper with work clique.
i left like secretly cause i dint want my boyf to come and follow me home.
but who knew he got so angry and he rushed down .
He even hit the wall with his hand ):
almost cried at that moment.
i am never gonna leave him without telling him anymore , i dont want the same scenario.
anyway stayed with him from 4-5 plus, than he left to take bus home.

2Oct :
went to work, did nothing much though
Chen Hanwei came.
Boyf came at around 11 plus.
in the end, closing janice and kelvin drank flaming lambo :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOTH OF THEM 3 OCTOBER BABIES (:

anyway ps my birthday is coming and i am so excited.

gonna go out tomorrow with boyf and clique <3
hope we will all enjoy our off day (Y)

the sweetest guy

2011-09-30T04:01:00.000+08:00

Can you find someone as sweet as him?

my stupid boy, ytd he send me home.
today he send me home.
How many days is he gonna stay under my void deck and go home at 5am in the morning?

First time i found someone that is such a nice guy.
you know people say that nice guys are extinct.
I found the rare one (:
His past might be ugly, just like mine. Mine's worst i think :x
BUT WHO THE F__K CARES.
He is mine, and i just love him for who he is.
He has his reason for his bad past, i have mine.
we dont like people to talk about it, so you all should just STFU.
Judge us, you dont know us well enough.

Remember when i said i will never fall for you, and vice-versa?
What's this situation now?
We both don't know.
but i just got to say, i really love you boy.
i love you for forgetting all my past.
helping me put all my past behind. (:

I'm super duper excited for the surprise my boy prepare for my birthday.
though it aint a surprise anymore.
AHAH, but i still am excited and i super duper love you for spending so much money on me !

2011-09-27T01:27:00.000+08:00

guess i am gonna fall sick soon.
having a flu, and got a sore throat nowww.

my days have been pretty hectic.
staying over at boy's house, cause he freaking want to send me home and stay under my void deck.
how can you let your dear beloved stay under the block all alone by himself?
i have no idea how his ex use to do that.

well, he has been sending me to work during his 4 hours of break.
sending me home, either by car/ by staying under my void deck.
went to prawning the day before.nothing much done.
they had 5 rods, caught 8prawns in 3hours-.-
me and boy were just sitting down there talking and knowing more about each other.
we never fail to find something to amuse us.

now we are like having a mini dispute over how long i can work after school start.
he doesnt want to give way
and insist i work 2 days only ):
grrrs, going back to our convo. update longer next time :D

liars, aint we?

2011-09-22T02:09:00.000+08:00

it's always good to have somewhere to rant.

i was so awaiting for work to end, cause you wanted to come down.
we promised, dint we?

when you ask me that question, i was like.
hey, i really want you to come down. but do you expect me to reply no?
well, and deep down i was having the hope that you will pop up.
well, that dint happen.
cause after like 1hour you told me you coming down.
but it was because you could feel the unhappiness and stuff,
and me not picking up your phoneee.
so i already knew it. by the time, excitement was gone.
maybe over dose by disappointment.
maybe i expect too much from you.

without you

2011-09-19T12:47:00.000+08:00

back from a 3D2N trip from bintan (:

first day
dint get to play paint ball ! the resort dint have.
so we went to play basketball.
ate our dinner at the sister resort.
came back to the resorts had our kbox session
than we went back to our rooms.
they played mahjong while i just died on my bed till the next day

second day
we went to eat breakfast.
rest awhile and went to play the water sports available.
i was like super scared, but now i feel it was quite fun lorhs.
http://xswatersports.com/activities/fly-fish/
take a look at the link. we did 2 of it , the banana and the flying fish.
there were 2 more, but i forgot the name :x
banana and the flying fish is the most scary la.
both i drop 2 times.
and my body is aching like hell.
i dont know whether it is because of the massage or what.

third day
breakfast, and rotting in our room
went to ferry terminal one hour earlier liao.
but our ferry dint APPEAR.
waited 1 and a half hour for one ferry to appear.
wasnt indofalcon but was falcon 2.
guess they immediately send one.
dont know what happen to the other one.

i went to town after reaching singapore.
went to meet b.
he accompany me home.
stayed under my block till the last bus.
i couldnt leave him alone, so i went down,
but around 4 i going to die lerh.
so went back to sleep.

I am currently unknown of what i want....

hey, wasn't it you who's always been there for me

2011-09-12T02:46:00.000+08:00

the girl who i hated so much when i was in secondary 1.

the girl who was the left out, the girl who was hated by all . We both gone through it during one phrase of our secondary school life.

the girl who knows the reason why i played w that particular someone. even though deep inside i had some feelings for him.

the girl that somehow fall in love w the same person i do.

hey bitch, its you.

yea, i know you'll be reading this.

we've gone through so so much this 6 years.

we use to dislike each other so much.

HAHA, but well, birds of the same feather flock together?

I love you, you have been like the best friend ever.

Remember those nights i ran away from home and stayed over at your house.

in the end your dad had to drive me home -.-

remember those days we use to slack around and do nothing.

I love you bitch.

I bet i love you more than your boyf do. HAHA

I'm happy for you that you aint walking down the same road as me.

well, last long w your boy.

Last as long as you can.

and dont compare w me the duration la, you better last longer than me.

I'm happy that you found someone that really love you so much.

but at the same time, i am super jealous.

cause you always spending time w him, and we cant even have our private times tgt.

cause you bring him around !!! GRRSS.

I miss you cause you are the only one that was always around during my deepest time of my life.

I love you for that <3

And i love you for telling me your secrets too, tiny, dirty secrets. HAHA.

well, i can still laugh at the thought when we panic over some stupid stuffs.

anyway, i am meeting you tmr, like finally over a gazillion years.

grrs, gonna give you a big hug, and a big kiss tmr .

a lonely night

2011-09-08T02:51:00.001+08:00

today i want somebody by my side.
but i realized there aint anyone that i could think of

well, we live for ourselves after all don't we?
i work so hard, to try to shrug off the fact that i am alone and lonely.
but this reality bites me every night .

we girls/women tend to be stupid.
we fall in love w the asshole/bastard, leaving the good guys out there.
and when we get hurt, we categorize all guys in the ( bastard ) category.
why can't we fall in love w the good guys , you ask me?
maybe when a bad boy fall in love he will be ultra nice and you will feel special.
cause the way he treat others and you is different.
well, beats me.
girls are complicated.

this tired brain of mine is thinking too much while typing this post.
Hurting my heart even more by reminding myself of my loneliness, lets move on

Tmr is finally my official official official offday.
Gonna go holiday inn with Ck to buy apple sour liquor for me and christy (:
and movie with him and meeting yr at night bahs.
excited? maybe.

when will that someone that can make my heart beat rapidly for him appear?

it turns out freedom means nothing but missing you

2011-09-05T01:41:00.000+08:00

even how hard i try, you are still lingering in my heart.
what is this?
i shouldnt be hoping for something but still i am.
hoping for something that i shouldnt be.

i carved ur name on thebullet so people would know, u were the last thing going through my head

2011-09-04T13:27:00.002+08:00

well, been working with him this few days and i am glad to say that i step over this border

I feel that i am stronger bahs :D

and i am , i guess.

to lighten the mood of my lonely blog.

lets post one cute lil' photo of me :X HAHA

enjoying my holidays by working....

this week although i had an exam on wed, i worked everyday except wednesday.

next week i am gonna have mon and thursday off.

AND THOSE TWO DAYS ARE GONNA BE DARN PACK.

MON

going out with lunch with E.

kbox with class clique from 3-6

and yukiyaki after that

THURSDAY

most prob afternoon spent it with ck.

night spend with yr and co.

OMG, hahas. my holiday will fly past like this you know.

i should like enjoy more.

but well, i am.

I BLOGSHOPPED UP TO 150 plus of clothing.

plus klipsh earphones for myself <3

hehe, pampering myself with all my hard work.

anyway i am gonna be vain and post a photo with my FIRST EVER 100 dollar notes.

sorry la, is just that the bank always give me 50dollar instead of 100.

than finally today when i claim cab fee i got the 100 :D

i took many tries. so yeaps, i made it into animation for the convenience of your eyes

CHAOS `

hey irresponsible bastard (:

2011-09-02T02:26:00.000+08:00

you know when a guy is really not worth waiting for.

i dont like people that is so irresponsible when it comes to work.
when you say it, you fucking do and complete it properly.
i am not shooting anyone in particular.
but hey, do what you are suppose to do,
dont freaking leave it halfway dangling there.
I dont like it, and when this type of thing continue, you all will get it.
If you want me to continue with what i am unhappy, i can continue on and on.
but i aint being petty.
I aint being unreasonable.
I just want all of you to do your part, to do what everyone is doing.
To complete your job, to do the same amount of job everyone is doing.
Is it that fucking hard?

god, i should stop thinking of work.
is after work already :D
anyway to that freaking guy who dint turn up,
i am coping well very well with life.
please turn up for work tmr
i wanna prove to myself that my heart wont waiver anymore.
i wanna step above this border.
towards a stronger me <3

To Daryl Koh ChongWei

2011-08-26T03:49:00.001+08:00

A letter I'm writing to get you off my chest.
I am gonna type out everything and cry out everything today.
AND I WILL STOP.

Dear b ( you use to call me that ),
I miss you. Although we have been tgt for only 1 month, I have fallen really deep.
You know the first time we chat on fb, you scolded me for wanting to smoke
It really touched me that you cared (:
The next day you send me to work when it was your off.
The following day, you met me in school. You told me it was guanyin's bday but i dint believe.
cause you keep telling stories to me .
We met almost everyday of the week, usually 5 out of 7.
Went to work together, you waited for cab with me.
Went over to stay over at your house, and having to tahan your stupid nonsensical music i dont appreciate.
Your constant bullying at people in a joking method ( CUTE but annoying)
your stupid handsign with the stupid shake of your head. ( always making me laugh)
those holes in your jeans, increasing by sizeeee.
Our first date, seragoon nex for ichiban , school for my test and than a movie at cinileisure <3
the tickets and receipts are still in my wallet.

You saying that i look better with specs and hair tied up.
I have been tying up my hair recently.
why dont you drop by by yourself to see me.

YOUR ANNOYING CRAZINESS WHEN YOU DRINK.
but it makes me love you more.
when you drink, you just become cuter.

the time you got angry and hit ray.
the time you always call me when i get on to the cab to your house.
the time you always say " why i cant talk to you mea? you dont like?"
i like, i love it, and i miss it yoh.

i saw you on the first day of my test,
i really couldnt concentrate in anything .
i dont know why.
from that day, i keep hoping i will see you somewhere in school.
i must be insane. i am nothing to you anymore.

you told me she wasnt pretty, she was skinny like disgustingly skinny.
why are you with her.
why did you come with her.
to provoke me? you manage to.
to make me lose love in you? No you dint. you make me realise how much i really love you.

you know i still think about us even when i am hurt so much, and i feel so cheated.
i think of all those crazy moments we had.
the happy moments.
the hug you always gave me

the time you hug me at 401, cause you saw my msg to lionel
It was something i was complaining about
and it was you leaving me alone so long that i dint like
you squeezed over to my side of the chair, when it is suppose to be only one person sitting
and you just hugged me,
do you know how happy i was? Seriously, i dint expect that.
but it just was so awesome.

the time we walk punggol park on our off day when i was suppose to study..
with your precious lily <3
you know it was seriously damn hilarious and enjoyable.
you make me love dogs, or should i say lily make me love dogs..
it was just so funny seeing you chase after lily.
your so angry tone towards her with failure to capture her attention or listen to you.
your so excitingly tone when calling her name, cause she only respond to that.
your sadness when you see that lily was getting all the attention
so you decided to act like her? HAHA (:
how you forbid me to touch her cause i was touching her and leaving you all alone?

The last night we spend together.
met you after work, went to eat mac
got chase out of the mac! so went to kopitiam there to eat the remainder.
I took a cab back home.
went home bath, came out to find you again.
Well, you drank.
And cause you are so caught up with the frindge
you started telling me to call you bang ge and stuffs.
STUPID AND CUTE (:
went to sleep. felt something amiss when you dint let me touch your phone
cause usually i was free to use it.
Check your msges when you were asleep.
knew you wanted to break up with me, i dint want to believe it
but well,
Called ck , he went to meet me, was suppose to leave ur house at 3 to go work.
but left at 1.30.
Did you notice those last few strokes i gave you , did you realise the sadness when i was doing that.
I wanted to leave immediately, dint care if ck even reach.
i walk done all the way,
did you notice one stick of cigg missing?
I guess you dint.
took it, smoke on the way down those long 16 level of stairs.
sat at the park, thinking of what we use to share.
finally garnered my strength to text you at 4 plus 5.
got your replied to my question and it was " sorry to say, but no"
that was the end.
you tell me, how am i suppose to accept that, how abrupt it was.
although i was expecting it, i was hoping for something different.

dont you know i was hoping we will get back tgt after exams?
cause you told me " why rush to meet me? we got so much time after exams"
where is the time now. tell me where is it.
i guess its all gone. gone together with the wind.

i love you, i really did and i still love you

my heart is still with you <3
but i guess yours aint.

so what's the point?

Yours Sincerely,
A stupid girl

FM DAY

2011-08-26T03:16:00.000+08:00

fm was like shit . but i think still okays bahs :D
well, i work after exams.
left at 11pm, cause christy force me to. AND NOW I KNOW WHY.
she ask me and kelvin to go supper, also with a motive.
so we sat down while waiting for xavier they all to reach
she keep not letting me go back wildoats @pp.
because he was there yoh.. HAHA
and he was with a girl. -.-
WHATEVER YOH . YOU KNOW WHATEVER.
eventually i went back but i dint see him too.

so i only knew when i got to punggol nasi lemak there.
venus told me, zijie no mood for anything.
Well, cried in the cab home.
i promised not to cry, but just today alriight?
Janice told me to cry it over.
well, i love my work friends, seriously
Thanks for being so considerate.
There will be no better working place than there (:

I LOVE YOU ALL <3

HECTIC DAY

2011-08-24T02:01:00.000+08:00

well, i shall break today down into 3 parts.

Morning
Left house, reach woodlands mrt and found out i forgot my calculator ( NOT THAT IT WAS NECESSARY)
arrange to meet venus to borrow from her.
in the end her calculator died-.- LUCKILY, saw Kaiyuan.
borrowed his calculator :D

Afternoon
met venus after my test.
she ate macdonald.
i stare.
went to meet Ck at orchard !
WELL, bought 101 dollar worth of clothes from " pull and bear"
just 2 skirts and a shirt.
expensive but contented yoh ~

Night
went to work yoh!
it was edwin koh's birthday.
some customer i got to know, and who asked my no.
FATE OR WHAT.
i dint have schedule yet i went to work
AND HE AND HIS FRIEND CAME TO EAT.

hope he had a wonderful night (:

ray and nelson came to drink too. Ps-ing poor wing chiew.
i guess what's keeping me occupied is really work yoh.
it just makes me think everythhing other than him.
HAHA.

ohya, closing someone ordered waterfall
ray spilled it on the table.
table started burning, like slight.
and i think the girl got too shock, she kick the table and burnt till herself.

what a waterfall should look like in case you dont know

I HAVE TO BATH AND SLEEP YOH. night people <3

long break

2011-08-22T11:50:00.000+08:00

well, let me come back to blogging.
yeaps, i just ended a 1 month r/s.
i got ditched. ( what's new? )

just because he doesnt like me, it doesnt mean its the end of the world.
there will still be some one out there for me ! :D
beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
there will still be someone out there who see my beauty.

let me summarize the 1 month of r/s.
it was fun, it was crazy and it was nice (:
just like any r/s , i guess? or maybe a lil' crazy.
but everything's over, so well.
MOVE ON BITCH.

it's not like he is the only guy in my life yoh!
i have too many (WTH)
since i am single now, i have more money for myself.
so YEAPS, shopping spree soon man!
all of my money, i shall spend it on myself to make myself prettier
( NOT THAT I AM NOT PRETTY ENOUGH ). okays, just joking :D

but yeahs, gonna use it to beautify myself ( sound like some decoration )
so yeaps, you look out man !
I will make you regret for leaving me :D

stupid me

2011-06-22T00:46:00.000+08:00

well. i am dumb.
to trust a guy.
to actually think a guy can be trusted
to actually sit down there and let you totrture me.
i am dumb.

i enjoy the company .
but i hate you.
i hate you, if today was without you.
i think it will have gone on even more perfectly .
you should just get out of my life.
you this fucking idiotic guy.
go get all girls attention you want.
i am not gonna give mine anymore.
i hate you, and you should fuck off .
thats all.
tyvm.
i fucking hate you

Hard to find

2011-06-12T01:21:00.000+08:00

well, true love is really something hard to find ya.
When i found the perfect someone that i wanted , i let go.
He was rich, nice, clever and handsome (over average)
well, dumb me or what?
But there was just no feel.
Geexz, hate myself.
now when someone woo me, i look out for this things.
but are those points really what i want?
I just want someone that make me feel like i'm really super duper special.
that's why i cant stand guys who treat me super nice when they have no intention on me or anything.
cause this feeling sucks when i fall slowly in love, when they dont feel anything.

idk why i'm feeling this way.
is it because there is this someone making me feel this way right now?
or is it because i am too use to the fact of having someone by my side? OH GAWD. pampered me

i dont know what i want right now.
i just want some love seriously.
but true love never come so easily.
guess i'll have to wait.
Wait for that someone to ever realise my existence aye?

back to childhooodddd~

2011-06-04T01:27:00.003+08:00

went to a childcare centre for CIP today.
the kids were really freaking cute.
sorry, my fav was NATASHA.
gosh, extrovert max. like me
and super enthu hurh.
SHE LISTENS TO US.
best part (Y)
and participates super actively.
well, i just love her.
shall upload photos when the group upload it up on fb.
WAIT FOR THOSE PHOTOS.
cause i swear the kids are damn cute, you'll meltxzzzzz

HI WORLD

2011-05-28T23:06:00.000+08:00

been so long since i blog.
been sick from last sunday. till nowwwww !
super long right?
till now my body immuned, just having fever and diarre...
GOSH, i wanna recover fast hurh. MONDAY GOT SCHOOL!!

and i wanna spend time with my friends plus its GSS now!
GOT TO GO SHOPPING YOH!

i am really awaiting for the holidays.
when the holidays come, i will be enjoying myself

Is the world really ending?

2011-05-21T01:31:00.001+08:00

well, they say today will be the judgement day. 6pm
Everywhere will be affected by earthquake and god will bring up those saved and those that believe in him up to heaven.
But why should we sporeans worry?
We have never gotten into an earthquake. we are in a safe spot hurh!
so long we haven tio before any earthquake.
we are the heng heng country can?!

If tommorow was to be really the start of our torturous day.
I want to say that
I really appreciate my clique, my sembawang friends, my T.A.P

and lastly my bestie, LENA NG MAXIMUM
love you all deep deep!
especially lena ng, who really can guess whatever nonsense i am gonna sprout out next. <3
i love you dearie , so long since i last saw youuuuu!

I love yiying muchie muchie toooooooo hurh!
Always there to listen to my nonsense.
and yea, entertaining me with her stupidityyyyyy! :D

anyway the world wont end, i hope
cause GSS coming and well
I GOT OUTING WITH T.A.P ppl on sunday ! (Y)

Is the world really ending?

2011-05-21T01:24:00.001+08:00

LOVE

2011-05-19T11:24:00.001+08:00

well, let's talk about this topic.
Is not that i want to, but yea. some people just dont know what i am thinking.
You think that deep down inside my heart i am finding for this "perfect" guy?
Sorry, now i am still trying to step over this tiny stone infront of me to put the past behind.
I am not yet prepared for love or should i say i dont know when i will.

Deep down in my heart, i am finding for a guy who can really love me, who i can reaally enjoy my time with and forget all about my troubles.
but do you expect me to say that to someone.
Dont be retarded.
Please have some EQ hurh.
and i dont know how you found out i was complaining about you.

Yea, dont be a retard.
I dont need you to worry if i can find a boyf/ husband next time.
this i will think through myself.
even if i die alone, it is my decision.
None that you can try to change.

My mother agrees with the way i think right now. " i want a "perfect" boyf"
She believes that this way i wont have a boyf till the suitable age.
So who are you to comment on my life?
Be my father then i let you comment.

Just another day

2011-05-09T01:37:00.000+08:00

You know i hate how much i keep thinking about my f-up life.
i hate how much people judge me.
Yea, i just freaking hate myself.
But i am struggling , i am trying my best now.
Trying to change myself, but why?
why do you all have to push me down yet again?
Why cant you just accept me, just accept the real me?
Do i freaking look like someone who is good to play with?!
Maybe i look like one.
WHATEVER SHIT.

people in wonderful relationship all over.
what am i ?
just a freaking lonely soul
yea, i have friends, lots indeed.
but how many can i trust?
yea, i have admirers. but why can i not fall in love with them?
why do i push them away again?
OHMYGAWD. i hate myself. i dont know what is wrong with myself.

LingYahui arh! wake up your freaking idea.
You dont have the rights to choose.
Just accept people....
Every guy you fall in love is a bastard, but those that love you are gentlemens.
Choose the better one, why do you always choose the bad ones?!
I seriously dont know myself.
LIKE COMPLETELY.

okays, i like pink, black, skyblue. i like winnie the pooh
i like cute things. i like to be loved, but get irritated when a guy loves me too much. WTH RIGHT?!
thinking more makes me feel like a retard. shall stop, go listen songs. draw circles.
bye!

GEORGE YEO

2011-05-08T02:44:00.000+08:00

george yeo was really a great person.
even during his loss, he congratulate the WP
told them to take care of aljunied people well.
" we fought hard, we have no regrets . and we respect the decisions of the ppl "- george yeo

): i wanna cry already. he look like he was gonna cry can.
and the most shitty stuffs that make me angry is that people are voting cz they want a change.
You want a change? okays. Go america, Obama give you. HIS MOTTO IS CHANGE.
but sorry ah, Singapore not same.
we choose wisely, we dont vote someone else because we want a change.
We vote for who we truly believe can do a better job.
PAP took care of aljunied for 10 years, why dont you trust them ?
I seriously hate adults now can.
GEORGE YEO SERVE YOU FOR 23 YEARS, and you replace him like this ? Just like this?!

"George Yeo is shaking hands at Bedok Stadium as he leaves. A crowd is tailing him, some waving goodbye, others clapping. "
YOU ALL WILL REGRET MAN.
i will miss you george yeo.
I hope he can come back in 5 years time.

Workers' party. you better do a good job.
although i like sylvia lim.
BUT YEA, she better do a good job.
dont make george yeo's effort go to waste !
omg, why this elections make us so emotional.
damn it.
it's over, move on bahs.

NIGHTS. gotta go work tmr!

I'm done with you

2011-05-04T23:33:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jb6dx27SI8Q&feature=relmfu

Freaking cool girl <3
i love her ttm.

I AM A BAD ASS BITCH, and i am a pretty girl (:
well, guys doesn't deserve me.
HAHA, and i am done with him.
inspired, gonna be persistent.

TO THOSE FREAKING GUYS THAT CALL ME ONLY WHEN THEY ARE FREE
dont come to me when you need me, i aint your body guard.
I aint someone that you can come to when you happy happy.
When you not happy you go away.
if it was the past me, i would have entertained you.
but i am so sorry, i am not free anymore for such shit.
I grew up
I realised those aint friends, and i am just being made use of as an entertainer.
So please go away . thank you (:

My heart wont move, i am just waiting for that special some one to come along.
He's been there all along, but one sided is just plain shit la.
NVM, FORGET IT.
move on yahui , move on.
BYE

AWESOME LIFE

2011-05-04T01:05:00.000+08:00

well, i am having an awesome life right now.
And yea , as my fb status says .
Everytime i see your face, i get more and more disgusted.
Wonder why i dated such a guy...

i kinda confessed to my crush for 1 year plus. SHIT LA.
AWKWARDNESSSSSS-.-
but hey, is just a tiny miny crush.
PLEASSE DONT THINK TOO MUCH.
i know you always do.
well, i am happy with my awesome clique
and i freaking hope things will remain this way aye.
Life's great when we dont have to think too much.
SO YA. DONT THINK DONT THINK

crush or not?

2011-05-03T00:50:00.000+08:00

i guess now i know the feeling of being so near yet so far.
He is always so near, but yeah.
He doesn't know.
Life so sucks.

I dont know if this is a crush.
I dont know if i love you.
GEEXZ.
yahui shall stop thinking (:
time will prove it all.
I just hope things dont go further.
I just want things to remain in this stage.
Knew so long, i dont want things to change anymore.

Just the way it is please. And my heart please dont change.
just stay where it is! (Y)
just remain this way pleasse (:

Nicole Seah

2011-04-29T00:41:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YY9yU2r9ywM&feature=player_embedded

Well, this is the first speech of Nicole.
I personally dont hold any grudges against her.
But dont you freaking think it is ridiculous.
Many of you are blinded by the fact, you hate PAP.
YOU JUST WANNA HAVE A CHANGE.

hey, dont be ridiculous and just go liking some other group because of that.
Use your brain.
Firstly, she criticize PM LEE about him not being to address some needs.
Hey, why dont you talk about his contributions.
And she dont have any rights to ask PM LEE those kind of ridiculous question.
I got a question.
Did she get up to the stand where PM LEE is now? Does she knows the stress and everything he go through? Does she knows that for everything they try to benefit the people, they will have to draw up new laws.AND THE LAW IS FREAKING TIRING? studying law is already hell. Imagine them having to amend everything cause of what you say? If you can meet every demand, then you comment lurhs.

Secondly,
You can say about their pay. But some times those work they do are worth the pay. But thats not what i am hitting on. The thing is : She can talk as much as she want, she may hate them to the core, say they take our money, but when she become their level do you think she will not react the way. AND MIND YOU, she is just 24 . DO YOU THINK SHE WILL NOT THINK ABOUT THE MONEY?

Thirdly,
you can promise anything under the world. But can you carry out. Giving false hopes just to win people aint something good. You assure you can do better than PAP, but are you sure? That is my question. ARE YOU SURE YOU WONT TURN UP LIKE THEM? ARE YOU SURE PEOPLE WILL BE HAPPIER UNDER YOU? ARE YOU SURE ?

Lastlym
She is FUCKING RACIST ( foreignist - if got this word).
sorry if i offend everyone, i am racist. But not to that extreme. I still appreciate them for being here, doing all the sai kang. Now you not happy got foreigners? You go be maid la, you go build roads, you go clean toilets? We dont wanna do it, thats why. If you dont like foreigners, then who do the saikang job next time? GIVE OUR MP DO LA, SINCE THEY CHASE THEM OUT?

well, you can hate me for all you want.
But think with logic please. THANK YOU VERY MUCH

2011-04-23T14:42:00.001+08:00

Doing tons of tutorial this hour when i can be sleeping ):

LIM YIYING

2011-04-19T23:02:00.000+08:00

lim yiying.
I really love you man.
WHY ARE YOU SO GOOD.
why dint i know you long ago ):
geexz, you always cheer me up when i'm sad and confused.
We should have known each other longer.
my life wont be so eff up, and i'll have someone that is so kind as my best friend! (:
When my life is down, when i need someone to talk to.
your name always pops up in my head.
okays, along with alexis, lena and muina. But muina i dont dare text her :X
AHAH

well, i am really glad i knew you and you know what.
THANKS FOR THE LOVING CARD.
you took so much effort to write it.
well, here's a dedicated post to you.
EVEN WITH MY HECTIC SCHEDULE , & my still very EFF UP LIFE.

i love you and i hope i dont lose you as a friend aye <3

EMO night

2011-04-13T01:47:00.000+08:00

been thinking so much today.
life still moves on after the emo session.
but well, i kinda miss him.
I bet he will be happy when he see this .
But yea.
Nate wong, i miss you(:
sorry for being a stupid girl and not appreciating how good you were to me
I gonna go sleep soon.

CAMP TELANUS

2011-04-09T18:39:00.000+08:00

been so long that i have been blogging! :D
i recently came back from a 4D3N camp at telanus beach resort!
Seriously enjoyable.
We had to climb up the jungle. and made our own hammock.
Sleep in the hammock for a day.

Second day we came back from the jungle to the resort.
WOAH, nice food awaiting us <3
we made raft and had to go to another end of the resort. Kinda cool.
but yy cut her hand at the particles ):
poor thing!!

third day we had adventure race. We did many things and it was really another fun day (:

Had a nice sleep as usual in the bunk! AND NEXT DAY WAS BACK TO SINGAPORE ALR ):
miss the food there and miss the people from HERMIT CHEEZE GUNS.
LOVE THEM LIKE MAXXXX.

well, the night we reach singapore.
we went to seragoon chompchomp.
we ate "lala" , chicken wing, satay,oyster omelette, kangkong and bbq stingray. SUGARCANE TOO :D
austen nvr ate before most of the stuffs and dexter was the first time eating lala , he like it like crazy!!
ANYWAY we had desserts at the dessort bowl.
NICE DESSERT.

outing next wednesday again! WILL UPDATE THEN! <3

PULAU UBIN

2011-03-26T14:38:00.001+08:00

went to pulau ubin with my clique on 24 march.
Enjoyed ourselves!
But we got fine 50bucks for burning till the stools.
But who cares la. HAHAH
we were like stupids, waking up at 5 trying to see sunrise.
but in the end realised we cant see it from our chalet-.-
DAMN IT RIGHT?!
but well, i enjoyed myselfs except for all those stupid mosquito bites

ANYWAY BOYF IS COMING BACK ON MONDAY ~
yea, gonna see him soonnnnnn!
Omg, miss him much <3

2011-03-20T21:49:00.000+08:00

you know what?
FUCK THIS SHIT.
first thing i think of when i am free is you. Over my friends.
I kinda feel fuck up.
you being angry so easily this few days , kinda remind me of how he use to be like this.
He was the ideal guy, and after that he starting being angry and stuffs.

you are just making me feel that i am repeating the whole night mare again.
I use to feel the importance of my friends, but when he came in to my life.
I gave up on my friends.
after i gave up on them, he gave up on me.
I was left alone, had to stand back up again.

Now you are getting jealous over my friend, i know its not wrong for you.
But please, trust me alittle.
It sucks when you dont.
I am dying, dying alittle more everyday with this quarrel.
I am starting to hate being in a r/s. If you restrict me so much.
Seriously, you aint here, it suck enough.
Now cant i even talk to my friend?

Government's high pay

2011-03-20T21:21:00.000+08:00

today i saw this video of ppl sharing a video about someone asking why the govt are having so highly paid. And is it what they are suppose to get and stuffs.

I sort of envy this type of people, especially since she is a lady.
7% GST - to pay for their pay.
why GST keep rising, because their pay keep rising too.
even though how much we complain, seriously
we cant do anything.
Unless, the opposition win over or something.
Sometimes the things the govt do kinda piss people off.
Examples are - the constant construction of my house playground.
I think they had it renovated 3 to 4 times in a year.
seriously, you see your money going to all those stuffs that are so useless.
Whats with changing the playground all over again, time and time again.
It seriously have no help, the kids will still play happily irregardless of how it looks and stuffs.

I shall stop blogging, kinda feel helpless.

DAY OUT :D

2011-03-17T23:01:00.000+08:00

went out with nich. went to eat tonkichi, kinda burnt away his 50bucks!
AHAHA, went window shopping and he found some bloody exp jacket he like in zara...
He wants to get it so badly, hahas.
Well, head home after that. a short day out.
wanted to watch movie, but he dint-.-
idiot guy.
well, gonna head to watch dream high :D
nights people :D

JAPAN'S EARTHQUAKE ):

2011-03-15T00:19:00.000+08:00

this few days news of japan's earthquake kinda dampen my mood and make me feel like upset.
So many people cursing on facebook on japan say serve them right and all those.
HEY, dont be a bloody ass la seriously.
People are dying and you're cursing this country . because of those minority that are evil.
Every country will have a few like this, you cant judge a country because of a few.

AND HEY, care for the country not for the porn star la-.-
WTH, more and more indonesia fans are caring about their porn star.

Grandma and grandpa are suppose to be fine. I hope that everything will be good for them (:
Great-grandma please look after all of them in japan.
I miss you, i lost you and i dont want them to leave this world in this way.
At least, let them live up to 100, and i wanna be by their side when they leave. :D

2011-03-11T09:19:00.000+08:00

Maybe i was just stupid, stupid to even agree. I miss you but i cant do a single shit right now. I really want to trust you that you are truthful, but ppl say " NAN REN HEN HUAI DE" . tell me what to do? WHAT TO DO? ):

SISSY'S BIRTHDAY :D

2011-03-08T19:42:00.000+08:00

today is my sis's bday !
" HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIHUI "
(: happy 11th to her. and i hope she doesnt follow my footsteps
Be a good girl, dont be ahlian, ahlian also no use.
Be good and study, future is shining bright for you :D

this few days kinda busy with work.
This week i'll be working throughout the whole week.
So i'll be updating less, but please check up my blog time to time to stalk me ah! HAHA <3
love you all peeps. even my haters, and all those retards

I AM NUMBER 4

2011-03-03T11:20:00.000+08:00

went to watch the 9.30 show at yishun GV. It was nice and thrilling i guess?
scream 2 times through the movie, kinda ps.
But it's because it was sudden whatt !
I recommend this show to those guys that wanna go dating with a girl you like.
She will grab on to you * MOST LIKELY*
hahas, anyway i grab rachel ytd. AHAH, was holding her hand like mad.
I AM NUMBER 4 IS REALLY NICEEEEEEEE :D

I had a fun day with them as usual (:
always making my day ! Love them to the bitxzzzzzz <3

2011-03-02T01:32:00.000+08:00

Exams over already! HEHE

spend today sleeping till 2.45.

woke up, prepared and went to semb to meet yongrennnn.

after that went to 925 to eat chicken rice , then walk back to ssc.

walk around then take shuttle bus to sunplaza .

and again went to 313 to eat tomyam. HAHA

after that ahlong send me home (:

home sweeet home.

been camping infront of the comp for 1 and a half hour.

seriously lazy to move my butt, but i guess i gtg bath soon ~

one day of holiday flew pass like this.

holiday aye holiday.

It's kinda boring when there is no work too ~

well, gonna go bath alr.

BYE PEEOPLLESS

WEE-UUU-WWEEEE

2011-02-25T12:12:00.000+08:00

Sorry, haven't been blogging recently! Busy with EXAMS.
yea, not really busy bahs.
the routine is standardize.
I bring out my books and intend to study with my friends.
In the end, i will feel disturb, give up on my studies and play with them.
Kinda shitty.
Econs and PACC down liao, just awaiting for the stupid FOM.
i hope i can score without studying.
HMMS, wouldn't it be great~!
well. let's stop daydreaming.

Anyway say " my best 5months of mmy whole life "'s sis.
Jitao act like i dint see her, i bet she did the same.
luckily the ride was only 19 mins, or i might die of stiff neck.
HAHA, just joking.
But well, it was really awkward.

Gonna work today again, yea . i work ytd
See what i meant when i say i dont study.
i really dont.
not like people who act they never study, then they come out score well-.-
make me wanna slap their face only. AHHA.
well, gtg watch my dramieeess~
BYE <3

i dont care ~

2011-02-19T19:51:00.000+08:00

To the person spamming my tagboard :

I don't give a damn about your opinions. None of your opinion bothers me, it just reflects badly on yourself. When people finds out who you are, they will think why is this person so retarded, how old already still spam people's blog. I really don't bother about your opinion cause i know that when i care and tumble down, you'll be happy cause that is your motive. I wont let a keyboard warrior win (: Sorry ah, i am not as weak as what you think. I'll be glad if you save embarrassment for yourself and scram away from my blog. I dint beg you or plead you to read my blog aye ? So just dont read it if the content bothers you so much(:

Other than people spamming my blog, the other type i hate is borrow money dont return the.

Seriously make my blood boil.

I save your face dont write your name bahs, but i bet you wont be reading my blog too (:

went to meet syr after movie with lena and her boyf.

Went semb, saw that ____ was with chunleng they all in xinwang.

To be honest i could have gone in, but to save the embarrassment for him, i walk away.

never even board the car, because it will be awkward.

Seriously, cant you tell me " Eh, i return you next week. i return you soon " or anything like that?

already half a year an more, super dulan la.
macham bad debts already, you were really in need of help so i lend you, then now you run away from me like some dog.

DULAN MAX. dont feel like typing. CHAOS

3years down

2011-02-16T22:56:00.000+08:00

i cant wait to be 21.
freedom, yea.
i know it's gonna be like work .
but freedom is all that it matters.
I'll strive for the best university.
Do my fucking best in anything.
Seriously, i dont know why must you pull me down.
Why cant i have the freedom like how others have?
I fucking hate you all.
I dont like to be tied down.
You all disapprove of my friends, make me stay far away from them, when they are the one's that really know / understand and care for me.
What if they are gangster-like, what if they fight, what if they are lowly educated.
What rights do you all have to control who i want to make friends with.
Why must you criticize them, and criticize who i am when i am with them?
Yea, i envy those cool , cute, pretty good clique, but i just happen to be the unfortunate one that got backstab and betrayed by them.
I'm sorry i cant be like them, i am sorry i cant perform up to your expectation.
I am sorry that i am just so damn stupid.
I am sorry that i do things that make you feel embarrassed.
You dont even know what i am going through, you never did.
You are happy with my current clique of friends, i know it.
I am happy too, i appreciate them for being here for me.
But now when i just want a small request, you disagree.
K, you chose my friends, you approved of them, yet when i wanna do sth with them, you disagree.
Thanks so much, thanks for being so kind for me.
Thanks for being so PROTECTIVE THAT I CANT EVEN BREATH.
i dont know, maybe i should just change.
Just quit school, start working and hang out with my semb clique.
I let you see how bad i can go, and i slowly improve from there.
will you be able to see how much effort i put in, to try and be your god damn so sweet/ so kind/ so intelligent daughter?!

you know it really kinda suck.
I dint want to be the first child, i dint want to learn everything the hard way.
I dint want to be the experimental tool and the tool you use to make the others go the right way.
I dont like when people whine about their parents, because " HEY, did you know how much pain i went through last time" did your dad hit you with a hanger till the hanger broke? Did your dad scold you for whatever stupid reason he can find? Slacking around not studying, watching drama on comp, using fb on comp, checking the ans for your assignment cause you dont know how to do?
Everyone knows my dad is hot tempered.
Uncles,aunties and cousin, they think me and my dad r/s is better.
But please, NO. i just bought him a christmas present.
That's all.
Maybe you all will say he care for me.
But hey, can he show his care in a different way.
It's like, i seriously dont like it.
Guess, i got to stuck with this parents for my whole life.
I just want my freedom.
I just want to have my rights.

please understand me

2011-02-16T18:42:00.000+08:00

Worked on valentine's day, saw adam chen :D
and one couple ask me why i was working on valentine's
told them ddint have any boyf :X

went to eat at TOT with semb clique (:
and after that we went to partyworld ktv. SANG AND DRINK
went home on cab and really needed to sleep.
STRAIGHT KO on my bed after that.

Today was kinda boring day. Just went presentation
ate mac and came homeee.
slept till nowwww ~
AND I AM GONNA STUDY HARD FROM NOWWWWWW. okayssxzz

Pre-Valentine's day

2011-02-14T02:53:00.000+08:00

Pig's friend came with a rose, and a card (:
I knew pig was planning something all along.
Was still quite happy when i got the stuffs <3
I appreciate all this stuffs, and thanks so much.
I love you, and please come back fast cause i need you here by my side.
I feel so lousy cause i never do anything for you.
But well, you'll realise something.
That i really love you and that is enough! HAAHH, just joking!
Await for your lil' surprise <3
i stay up till so late for it, although you'll receive it a little late, but hope you still like it (:

off to sleep.
tmr need go gym ~

Eve of V.day

2011-02-13T10:08:00.000+08:00

Today's the eve of v.day.
Yea, as you can see i will be working again ~
and i'll be working on v.day itself!
This years valentine will be a lonely day for me.
Okays, maybe not!
I'm gonna go gym with yaser in the morning!
AND I WILL BE WORKING AT NIGHT! being a lightbulb for 15 couples~
WELL, obviously i have nothing on this v day , so it doesnt matter to me at all.

okays, i will not dampen the mood for all you people who are so excited for this v day.
I hope you enjoy yourself and your partner do sth so special and nice for you aye <3

2011-02-09T18:16:00.002+08:00

3rd day since you flew off~
My work is so screwed up, not completed here and there
than i have this mofo aching headache this morning.
stop myself from going to work, slept
and i guess i am feeling better now.
Gonna start completing my work (:

I love you <3

I love you (:

2011-02-05T22:32:00.000+08:00

Dint know you for quite long, dint say anything about you to anyone.
I regret even knowing you, even replying to your messages.
Should had just act cool and dont even talk to you in the first place.
maybe give you the " i am attach " face when we first saw each other.
Apparently i did none?
You are going away tmr, i'll miss you. I definitely will.
I hope i'll be able to tolerate, and hold on.
I know it is difficult, but i'll try.
Anyway you know you are suppose to send 200 back every month right?
and on my birthday month 400 please.
LOVE YOU MAX, RICHIEEEE ~

enjoyed myself with friends today.
Went party world, and pig paid for it. ( i assume)
gonna meet pig later at 1 ! (:
h2h talk, things wont change i guess.
i only hope time could revert itself, or have a time travel machine!

HAPPY CNY PEOPLEEEE !

2011-02-04T13:56:00.000+08:00

Happy CNY to all of you out there <3
shall do an update about my life since i havent been updating much.
Well, basically CNY went to my youngest uncle's house for reunion at boonlay.
left their house at 11.30 with my cousins and my uncle.
Went to find his girlf and we went to kbox at cinileisure!
enjoyed myself lots, they open 3 martel. and drank it all.
Cause quite a commotion with the manager, stupid day.
Well, proceed to go home at 7am.
2of my cousins were drunk, and maybe their boyf too.
Uncle was definitely drunk like hell!

I reach home at 8, woke up at 1.
Prepared and went to grandma house! Reach at 2!
in the end , we were just the 2 family.
All reach around 4!
All cannot wake up siaks! AHAHAH
went to clean my great grandfather and mother's grave.
太妈，太公，给我中4D头奖。爱你们！
then went to my youngest uncle in law house.
ate duck porridge, damn niceeee! (Y)
played blackjack, lose 5 bucks-.-
OKAYS BAHS, 5 bucks niahs!

Today going my oldest uncle house.
Leaving house soon alr, cause dad wanna catch the lion dance they hired.
I am going there to see what number they give! AHAHHA
and sure i will be learning how to play mahjong ! :X

Love ):

2011-01-28T09:24:00.000+08:00

I seriously dont know if love is something that i can handle.
I think i like you.
But i am scared, scared of hurting you.
scared that i'll make you fall in to the hole of love and then leave you.
if i do that, i'll be such a bitch , cause it's super hard to climb out of the hole.
and i dont like to make you hurt. cause i know the hurt you suffered before and i dont want that to happen to you again.
I hope you'll understand that i cant handdle this burden.
let's see the time when i can be serious and i am able to handle those stress

4D

2011-01-27T01:11:00.000+08:00

SINGYONGREN TIO 4D FIRST PRICE LURHHHHSSS!
i know it's not me, but feel happy. HAHAHA
and freaking regret la, why i never buy!!!!
it's like i can buy LV bag and many other things la.
DUMB MEEE. plus with the money i can stop work for 3 years liaoxzzzz.
HAIS.
NVM, i guess i will have to wait, but well dk when then i will strike

26jan2010

2011-01-26T00:50:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the super late late update!
HAHA.
I'm bored.
Starting to work and school at the same time.
like so freaking busy larhs!
I super pekchek, but well.
I have my awesome freinds like jasme and xiaoqin <3

LOVE YOU ALL MAN .
NEVER BACKSTAB AYE~
that's what we will never do, cause we know how hurtful it is

2011-01-23T02:41:00.000+08:00

love me for who i am , not who you want me to be (:
i'm looking at you from so near, yet i feel we are so fall apart.
i feel like i am falling in love, and i am controlling it.
i am trying hard not to, because i am scared.
scared of falling into the same trap every again :(
i guess looking at you is what i can do .
i can't do anything else anymore :(

HEY YOH

2011-01-20T11:11:00.002+08:00

I dont mind you criticizing me .
Just don't criticize my family members or my friends.
If you want to, please kindly state down your name.

My future

2011-01-19T01:50:00.000+08:00

I have think things through, and i just sorted everything that i actually want to do.
Yes, i want money, everyone wants money.
But what's with that? Yea, i hope i win lottery too. BUT IT'S NOT THAT EASY.
i dont want to regret in my future and say " hey, i should have studied this last time"
From this date onwards, i am gonna listen to what my dad say and follow his advice.
I was talking to my mom today, and she told me how awesome my dad is.
I know my dad's awesome, but i just hate his pressure thats all.
My mom told me my dad told her that she should work at NUS and teach jap.
She listen to him and yea, guess what. Her hourly pay is $85, how awesome is that.
She practically earn $1000 every month just by going to school for 2 days.
For my dad, he had set a goal before he got married to my mom. He told my mom he wants 4 kids and a factory/ office of his own.
Yea, now he is a proud father of 4kids, although the last one came a little late.
And he owns a proudly furnished big office(:
He set up his office to a state where it is rent-able.
Now he rent out 3 rooms already! 2 at $450 and one at $550.
I am just freaking amaze at what he plan and stuffs.
already $2000 secured monthly salary. Yea, my mom say my dad can smell money.
He know what he should do so that money will come in.
AND YEA, I AM GONNA BE A DADDY'S GIRL AND LISTEN TO ALL HIS ADVICES (:

first, i will take up business chinese.
He said something about china booming and that everyone wants to go to china for business.
Next up, i will take up JLPT level 1.
Yea, i already have level 2 . AND THIS TIME I AM GOING TO STUDY HARD FOR MY JLPT (:

the following have not been set.
But my goals are to bring in those good products from japan to china.
Yea, with that i can go to japan to visit my grandma.
and the best thing is i will be paid and stuff.
Filial piety plus work. AMAZING OR WHAT

i've given up hope

2011-01-17T23:46:00.000+08:00

Guess i gotta listen and really give up hope.
I hate it, hate it that i must give up on something i really want to cling on.
I have no idea, i just dont want to give up but you all force me to.
I hate it,

TLWJ

2011-01-16T00:15:00.000+08:00

hey TLWJ, yea. you know who you are.
I seriously don't know what's with getting so angry because you waited for me 30mins at dover!
I DINT BRING MY PHONE, I TRIED HARD TO FIND YOUR NO.
and when i called you, you say you'll leave, cause SP alot of arrogant people.
wtf is wrong with you seriously.
Yea, you were sweet and nice when i went to your chalet, you were nice when we went for the movie date.
Was it only the two days?
I guess so.
You remember the times you were still working?
You had 3 hours break. I went down to cityhall with the intention of spending most of it with you.
In the end, you went to the gym, that was fine, i was still doing stuffs.
You say you will be quick, i dont know how long was your quick.
I certainly don't
I waited 1 hour for you at cityhall mrt station(:
i guess we will have more time to spend or something.
In the end what happen, you took the train from cityhall to dhoby gaut and alight.
(Y) nice one dude, i waited one hour for that ride.
I could have been doing something effective or might be home already.

I dont know why i still could smile that day, i seriously dont know.
We made plans of meeting , and everytime it gets cancelled.
Mostly cause you cant wake up on time.
Yea, i look forward to the day i can meet you, and * TADA* you just woke up.

Now you're acting like you dont know who i am.
Well, GROW UP PLEASE SERIOUSLY.
can you stop looking at your sacrifices and look at mine.
I WENT TO THE CHALET AT CHANGI CAUSE YOU SAID THERE WILL BE NO ONE TO ACCOMPANY YOU.
I waited for you so many times.
If you want to be childish go on.

All i have to say is : " hey, you aint that great seriously (: and stop asking the same question , it irritates me. Stop talking about your body building stuffs, protein shake and stuffs. Cause i really don't care, i don't wanna talk about that. If you wanna act as if you don't know who i am or what i am talking, go on . Cause i still wanna remain friends, it's you who doesn't want. So i can't do anything, and i'll never do anything :D "

Life as it is

2011-01-14T03:13:00.000+08:00

LIFE - Live in fear everyday.
Life's kinda suck doesn't it ?
Yea, i know. In the beginning of the year, i was like " HEY, We make it suck"
but now , it just feel like : HEY, Life just suck regardless of what we do.
I have been trying to change myself for the better in this 2011.
I was a bitch, a slut , a whore, HAIYAH.
anything you can think of to criticize me larhs! Happy?
I thought things will be better and I have been trying my best.
I guess, it isn't that simple.
I miss my good friend, or was it just me treating her as once?
Her msges seems so cold this few days, like she's irritated by me.
I dont know. I am confused. It's just that, i know she was there to listen to my constant blabber of love stories ( most of it failed though)
Wait, is it just me being over-sensitive over this stuffs? I really don't know.

I don't really need a guy seriously. I just need someone , even a girl will do, to give me more concern.
To really know who i am. Nobody knows me, seriously.
Yea, i am wild, crazy and whatever nonsense you can think of, but it isn't me.
I just hate myself, hate myself for longing those care.
If only my mom were to show her care more openly. Was working ytd, it was the 21 birthday of a girl.
Her mom bought her cartier watch and a love bangle. You know it's like super sweet, i almost cried la. The girl was like super happy, cause it was sth she wanted. Guess, my life isn't as fortunate as nice as hers.

Maybe i just screwed up everything from the start. Yea, the whole life's ruin. It's like a bush fire, you cant stop it. Once it burns, it burns down everyday. The chain of happiness is just gone like this. Fool on me for being a stupid girl, ruining everything

A CAMERA WANT!

2011-01-14T01:35:00.000+08:00

i want a camera ttm.
AND the next occasion i can think of is only valentine's
SO I WISH AND PRAY THAT SOME HAWT GUY WILL BUY ME A CAMERA!
not any camera ahhh!

I WANT EITHER OF THIS PWEEAASEEEEE <3

SO CUTE CAN PINK COLOUR.
SHIT, i really really want :(
nvm, gotta bear with it and pray hard someone will buy for me

To make myself pretty (:

2011-01-11T00:24:00.000+08:00

So from today onwards, i am going to try hard to save!
I'll be spending 50 dollars on clothes every month .
Save 50 dollars every month.
and yea, the rest let's see what will it be used for.

oh ya, those clothes are part of how i am trying to improve my image (:
will be putting on make up more often, cause some people say i look better with it (my family disagree though)

SO YOU PEOPLE LOOK FORWARD TO MY NEW IMAGE AYE :D

ITB !

2011-01-10T15:16:00.000+08:00

I'm in ITB lesson nowww.
and the two idiots beside me are irritating me continuously.
XIAOQIN TAN AND JASME SEAH !
eeyer, noisy ttm larhs.
I talk loud, they kp.
I talk soft, they say gay :(
so sad, i think i mute lurhs.
Please someone press it, cause i also dont know where it is.
At least if i am mute, i can dont talk and maybe wont get scolded at ALL.
HEHEH.
well, enough of ranting, back to studying!

Open house 2011

2011-01-06T00:51:00.000+08:00

Hey readers (:
today was the first day of our school (SP ) open's house.
I met awesome sec 4.
They are coolxzzz, i like them .
I was never so friendly last time, so i am glad they are.
They actually make me feel that they are listening. I like them for listening attentively although i kept blabbering nonsense!
Actually if anyone of you are reading my blog,
" HEY, STUDY HARD FOR YOUR O LEVEL (:
AS LONG AS YOU STUDY YOU CAN MAKE IT, I BELIEVE IN YOU ALL
EVERYONE HAS THE BRAIN, JUST WHETHER THEY WANT TO WORK HARD OR NOT "

to peicai sec girls :
friends are always guailan , shooting us here and there! hey, that's what friends are right.
In poly you will meet more of this kind of friend.
and those are what really make us bond closer (:

to jurongville sec girls :
Hey girls, guys are jerks (:
but alot of SP guys are nice :D and they dont want anything in return.
anyway, i am kinesthetic . HAHAH
WELL, we all our.
study hard, aim for your goals.
Your choices might change, but as long as you choose SP, i can see you all around ya :D
THE BEST THING IS YOU CAN SLEEP MORE. HAHAA

went out with kohong, khairul, mad and khay for dinner at marina's waraku :D
hehe, i had fun with those people.
we bitch and stuff. COOL PEOPLE.
anyway sorry my ex boyf ugly and fat la. AHAHAH
LOVE IS BLIND CANNNNNNN.
and i love you all<3
we should mix more, and i hope we wont like lose contact ya (:

hey hoooooo!

2011-01-04T23:12:00.000+08:00

Apparently, school started in a blink of an eye.
yesterday met cyn and bibi for dinner after lunch (:
today went to slack with yongren and xinhao at semb arcade after school, then met laogao,kenneth an amelialmn. :D
today was quite a fun day, like seriously .
enjoyed myself, and yea. relaxedddd.

got back my mst results !
99 for pacc, 90+ for econs, and 62.5 for ITB. ITB was horrible results, but i was pretty happy ! CAUSE I DID THE WRONG DOCUMENT.
and saw tzehui promised to cry if i got higher then her, BUT SHE DID NOT :(
well, i am quite contented with my results and I'll work harder.

AIM FOR UNI ! WOOHOOO ~

A new year . a new start

2010-12-31T11:31:00.000+08:00

A new year is always a new start for us.
It's something like the restart button for us,except that we can't restart it.
We learn from our mistake and choose to make our right decision (:
Those people out there who are complaining that 2010 was horrible and you hope 2011 will be better.
I will have to call you to shut up.
I am not trying to be a bitch fuck or what.
It's just that, HEY! It's you who make it horrible !
It's you made all those choices that lead to 2010 being horrible.
So don't hope 2011 will be better !
BECAUSE if you continue to carry on with this stupid attitude, 2011 will be just the same as 2010.
You never learn, your life will never improve.
And stop setting new year resolutions, cause I bet it will never be done.
I'm sorry, but seriously, you all know that!
What's with setting all those stupid resolutions, you cant get all of it done.
Therefore , i only set one !
" To make the right choice in what ever things "
why this resolution?
Well, it's pretty simple!
You know, we did stupid things during 2010.
2010 was horrible because we were dumb and naive and everything bad.
Yea, we were too childish, immature, blahblahblahs ... to make the right decision
When we were children we never regret that the year was bad and all those stuffs, instead we dread that it end so fast cause we will be separated with our friends!
Okays, so why did we not regret.
OBVIOUSLY, we were still young.
We dint have to make decisions, and if we did , our parents did for us.

Decisions carry a heavy weightage in our life right now.
Therefore if we make the right choice, life will be great ! Not only in the next year, but throughout our whole life.
I know it's hard to do this ! But with this resolution.
At least I'll try hard to make the right choice ! AND 2011 WILL NOT BE THAT BAD :D

THIS FUCKING PROSTITUTE

2010-12-30T14:32:00.000+08:00

http://www.simaikim.blogspot.com/
My friend share this bloglink up on facebook !
I was like curious because you see a butt there! AND IT'S A BLOG.
i have to warn you all , the pictures in the blog is super disgusting.
i will share some less disgusting photos later.
Okays, I don't get it.
Why does she use pussy and stuffs to decorate her blog?!
Okays. maybe she was harm
Maybe someone wanted to make her embarrass.
But she must be a real hated that people will create this blog.
Although the people who did the blog was evil , she must have did something to make them hate her so much!

go to the blog and judge it yourself.
anyway this is one of the less disgusting photo

Love

2010-12-28T15:15:00.000+08:00

Hey love,
you kinda suck.
I dont know why, i chose to give up , yet i am back in to you.
I tried my best to move away, to avoid you.
But yet , you come back haunting me :(
please dont do this to me will you.
I am tired , i am tired of this game already.
I need someone to be here for me, i dont need love.
I just need that person to care, to really care for the bottom of their heart.
AND I NEED THEM TO LIKE ME FOR WHO I AM.
not change me, i know i keep saying this.
but you know, they keep saying " for love you should change"
i dont think so, if it's that way.
You suck.
cause you should accept the person for who they are, not who you want them to be.
You aint that great if everyone change for you. It just shows you suck big time, cause you are a freaking bastard that don't see what is the inner and the truth of the person.

Love is like a cup of cappuccino, you add in more sugar if you want it sweet.
You stir it to mix every sweetness and bitterness together .
Love is suppose to bring you through every good and bad.
But now adays, people modernize love into what they want.
They claim they love someone just to have sex, they claim they love someone but they keep changing the person to who they want her/him to be.
Don't be ridiculous..

Love is suppose to be something like this!
Not

Now you get what i mean by they modernize love and that love is now something that some people see as sex.
Yea, you make love.
But you have to have love before you make it.
You need the ingredients.
Yea, to you all it is vagina and dick.
But actually it needs sparkles, it need chemistry.
It have to give you a sense of feeling that this person is really who i want, the right one.
Then you can make love.

Choose to listen, choose to agree or choose to disagree.
Every decision is up to you, it is yours to choose (:

HEY. I AM BACK

2010-12-27T21:27:00.000+08:00

HIHI PEOPLES.
I AM BACK . MWAHAHAHA.
i went to malaysia for a christmas trip and now i am back! :D
mwahaha.
I BOUGHT 2 DRESS AND ONE SHIRT.
wanted to buy more, but well.
no money ):
anyway on christmas, dint went out with TLWJ to watch movie.
because someone drank too much the day before and couldn't wake up the next day!
SUPER SAD CHRISTMAS LA.
anyway christmas is over already. AND THIS YEAR, MY PARENTS BO GIVE PRESENTS-.-
LIKE WTF :(
nvm, i guess i shall suffer in the new year :( SAD ME.
NVM!!!!

anyway i am super tired cause the ride back was fucking long.
I SHALL GO TO SLEEP .

the secret i kept, is no longer a secret anymore :(
hais.
i know i cant keep it for long. but it's something that traumatized me, and i really dont want people to know

MERRY CHRISTMAS

2010-12-25T00:44:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!
sorry , i have not have time to blog .
Yeaps, so i am here to blog on this christmas!
I HAD WORK, SUPER BORING I SWEAR.

i gave my dad his armani exchange shirt, my mom 150$, bro a fred perry wallet, sis - a 19 dollar notebook! youngest sis- a princess pillow

SUPER CUTE RIGHT.
ohmygawd. i hope i wake up tmr with tons of presents.
PLEASE MUMMY<3
hahas, well .
actually i dont need any, i am going out with TLWJ later after my work!
WEHHHEEESS.
a movie after work!! (: and i am gonna work around the museum with my friend tmr because tmr is museum open house <3
mwahahs, i love you all peoople out there!
MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE !

FACEBOOK FUN :D

2010-12-21T13:57:00.001+08:00

yesterday was quite a nice day :D

went out with thaleia.

and after that around 5 plus, apichet and gk came to find us (:

i swear they damn GUAILAN.

hahas, but well. It was fun.

Serioously been so long since i hang out with them !

I went to Ion to buy presents for my family !! ( LIKE FINALLY)

bought a Armani Exchange shirt for dad, a fred perry wallet for my bro :D

and i bought a shoe at Mitju from 313 (:

Spend like hell siakkss.

I HAVE TO SAVE MONEY LIKE SERIOUSLY.

was super tired when i got home.

saw that koh cheeguan was sad.

So talked to him on the phone, and we were busy spamming fb like some moron .
I SWEAR, SUPER RETARDED TTM

This are all on his wall :X

AND ON MY WALL, EVEN MORE MISLEADING CAN!

AND PROOF THAT I AM SUPER BORED.

AH CHOU'S WALL ^ LOOK UP ^

talk to ah chou yesterday :D until 6-.-

ASSHOLE SIAKS HIM.

HE SAY ME CHIO.

MY EYE CHIO ONLY!

but anyway had a great chat with him (:

Know a different ah chou from who i use to know bahs (:

I love all those people i use to slack with, if everyone were still tgt, things will be great.

Even though everyone is with a different group now, i still hope one day we can all meet up yea (:

LOVE <3

and to sign off , HI DOGGIE (:

I Just Had Sex

2010-12-20T21:12:00.003+08:00

Let's guess what does this video convey?
I really have no idea.
That sex is good and the guys should try?
Is it why nowadays all this guys there head are all about sex?
I know when we are teenagers we are curious and we wanna try.
Try once enough alr, why do you get so desperate for it?
It isn't something that you'll die for because you never do.
maybe it's a proud thing for guys to say that they aint a virgin, but i dont think it is for a girl.
I struggled so hard before i manage to say it ytd.
I feel it is nothing to be proud of and i feel that this song is ridiculous although it sounds nice.
SING SOMETHING WITH MORE MEANING PLEASE AKON.
Sex ruin friendship , it ruin a guy's mind!

Sex is frightening

2010-12-20T02:26:00.000+08:00

I thought you were a nice guy.
I seriously thought so. You ask for something in return for pei-ing me or should i say watching me eat.
You look handsome and nice.
But i seriously dint expect you to text me and say sex.
and when i rejected, you even say blowjob or touch touch.
WTF WTF WTF seriously.
Why do you have to make this 2 years/1.5 years of friendship go down because of this one stupid temptation.
I dont know why am i worth it, that you want to beg for sex.
I seriously seriously dont know, what the fuck is wrong with you!
NEVER HAVE SEX FOR LONG THEN DONT DO LA
sex is something you have to do with your love one. Not just any grass by the roadside
I know I aint a virgin. Sorry if i broke this news so suddenly , but i know alot of you know it.
Not a virgin doesnt mean i can be super open and have sex with you because you want it, i'm sorry.
I swore, i swore never to have sex with any body until i get married.
I will keep to this promise. My mom went crazy because she found out i was not a virgin.
Those days were hell, i swear i will never want to experience that period of time ever again.
It hurt me to see my mom cry so hard, to see my mom losing control of herself.
You know how hard it hurt?
She went into IMH, but you know , mom being strong.

They get well soon (:

she's doing well now, but i know she is still super worried for me, at least the trust is coming back bit by bit.

Do you even know how it hurt even more when my dad say i was heartless ( I DINT CRY)
yea, i dint cry. I avoided contact with my mom.
But why?
I SHALL TELL YOU THE BLOODY TRUTH RIGHT NOW!
I'm a girl filled with super lots of emotion. much more then anyone of my family members.
It hurts me, i wanna cry.
but once i cry, i will look weak, and my mom will worry.
I dont want her to worry. That's why i always stand up so fast. Not because i dint love that guy a lot, it's just I cant stop down there.

SO IF ANY OF YOU GUYS OUT THERE IS LOOKING FOR ME TO BE YOUR FUCKING SEX PARTNER OR WHATEVER SHIT. DREAM ON.
GO HOME AND LOOK AT YOUR PARENTS.
SEE HOW MUCH THEY LOVE YOU AND REFLECT ON YOUR FUCKING STUPID BEHAVIOUR

A FUN DAY AT ECP

2010-12-18T21:49:00.000+08:00

yesterday i went to ecp with my friends (:
we had fun and rode a weird vehicle.
I have no idea what that thing should be called, a trishaw with 4 wheels?
If you go to ecp, you should try this!
It allows you to bond with your friends (:
Like different from normal cycling, cause normal cycling everyone will be in different paces.
AND HOW CAN BE SO RELAX.
you'll understand when you see the photos!
I guess minimum will be 4 pax and max 6 pax?
actually the front can sit 2 small kids. so 8 pax?
Wondering what it this super weird vehicle/bicycle/ trishaw?
The place that you'll be able to rent it will be beside burger king the bicycle shop~!
It's 20 bucks for 1.5 hrs if you have a student pass.
and 30 bucks for 1.5 hrs for people who do not have student passes.

I shall stop my crabbing and post some photos to show you this interesting vehicle/bicycle/trishaw

A zilian zhao first! HAHAHA

me and my girls (:

me and xiaoqinnnnn:D

me, jasme and xiaoqin's hand

In the vehicle/trishaw/bicycle

FOR THE OUTER VIEW

OH YAAAAA. AND I MADE SUSHI !!!

see ! it's nice, see how they eat. AHAHAH

YTD WAS AWESOME <3

and thanks roy, jasme and xiaoqin for your presents~!

I love singlehood :D

2010-12-18T01:55:00.000+08:00

Recently i think is my peak period siols.
So many guys like me! HAHAS.
but i little bored of them siakss :x
i am so sorry, but like so no interest in any of them.
Because i dont know. too much attention make me feel irritated.
AHAHAH :X
and i am so busy recently , so like completely no time for boyf.
HAIS, GUESS I WILL BE SINGLE :D

Fun day with khay

2010-12-17T00:19:00.002+08:00

i had a wonderous day today with khay, kenhon and jason!
Initially was only with khay, and later both guys join in slowly.
Hahas, khay keep disgracing herself today.
AND ME TOO.
but i got no photos or anything, so quite okays laaa!
Hahas, will upload those photos up tmr on my blog.
Please be excited and click on my nuffnang. HAHA

I AM UBER HAPPY

2010-12-16T01:31:00.002+08:00

I like TLWJ.
he is a super nice and rich gentleman. AND HE IS CUTE.
okays, haha.
A almost perfect guy.
He wanted to fetch me from work today, but well i alr made plans with koh chee guan .
and he was already home when i end home, so yeaps.

he just said that i was his.
omg, uber duper sweetxzzzzzz.
i guess i am falling in loveee.
but should i ?
geexz, i should leave time to settle everything!

ANYWAY ,
went out with keting todayyy :D
my p2 bestieeee, been 11 years since i last seen her.
coolxzz right?
must thanks fb for bringing us back together!
anyway i was taller than her.
She use to be taller than me, hahaa

OKAYS, PHOTOS NOWWW

Sorry,we both suck at decorating the neoprints..
HAHAH, but we both look pretty right?

and we watch narnia tooooo :D

It was awesomexzzzzz.
It is the first ever Narnia movie i watch :X
so embarrassed to say that. but i am glad i watch this one.
shall go talk to beloved friends on msn <3
good night peoplees

OH YA, please click on the biore ad and view it . TYVM :D

excitedddd

2010-12-15T12:56:00.000+08:00

going out to meet keting nowww.
OHMYGAWD.
it's eleven yrs since i last saw her.
SO SO SO LOOKING FORWARD.
shall blog when i come back

One hell of a day

2010-12-14T20:12:00.000+08:00

Yestersay was a super awesomexzzz day!

So this are quite a few of the photos!
Anyway i had a real fun day.
Except for the chicken netball, i swear the chicken stinks and stuffs.
OH YA
the real disappointment was that " NO HOT GUYS "
hahas, but well.
to end the day, i went to watch harry potter with Terry :D
he was a super gentleman i swear!!
He treat me to the movie and he send me home by cab first (:
and i dint pay a cent that day!

For today, i slept the whole day.
Yeaps, i woke up eat and sleep.
Now i'm rotting at home watching drama.
Amazing right me.
My off day like this goneeee :(

Super webcammy

2010-12-12T20:46:00.000+08:00

I was super bored yesterday night.

And i started webcamming.

because i had make up onn.

i learnt it from Vivi mag that my mom bought back for me

i was acting retarded. HAHAH

Let down my hair cause i got bored with taking photos with my hair tied up.

i was getting real bored.

trying to make dou ji yan

Yea, so you can see how bored i am.

Cause i dont really zhi lian alot.

For those stalkers out there, i know you're happy to see me prettaye faceee! ahahhaah

The happiness of a only one

2010-12-11T14:44:00.001+08:00

So this book up there, is one of the presents my mom bought back for me.
To translate it to english it is " The similarities in being the only girl of your important person"
Started reading on the first chapter today morning.

In case anyone of you is in love with a hot looking guy that is super duper popular.
Take the chance! On his b'day give him something.
Don't worry that everyone else did, and that you will just be one of the many.
Cause many have this belief. and a sum of the good , hot guys receive no present/ flowers on their b'day.
Because everyone have the same mind set as you!
If you continue doing that for 5 years, he wont have the mindset that " you're just one of the many"
It will bring you a step closer to him (:

For others, when you love a guy.
You will wanna feel that you're his only one, but to him you might be just one of the many.
You have to choose a guy that makes you feels as if you're his only one.
and you gotta believe in yourself too that
You're the only girl that can make him feel love.
Believing is happiness, who cares about what others think.
As long as we're happy, that's the best <3

If we live our life, thinking that we cant be , we cant be.
How will things work out the way we want.
Seriously, if you keep getting scared that you'll fail, you're a loser.
PLEASE, WAKE UP .
If we never try , we never know.
Why do people keep trying and trying even though they fail, failure brings us a lot of fear, but we try, we try cause we believe we can do it better/ there is something better awaiting for us.

I experience so many heart break, met so many bastards.
But i kept trying and trying.
Everytime i get hurt, i said i give up.
I hate guys, i wont ever date another.
But yet again i'll date another, why?
Simply because they make me feel loved.
They make me wanna try again, even though i fail many times.
Why do i bother trying, cause i believe that things will turn out better this time.
Is the believe that keeps us going.
If you dont believe, you should start it right now!
IT'S NEVER TOO LATE TO START BELIEVING!
& NEVER STOP BELIEVING

Tron: legacy

2010-12-11T02:47:00.002+08:00

I went to Tron's facebook page and like the page. There was 3 applications i can entertain myself with.

SO WHY NOT RIGHT?

Hehe,so i decided to try out the video application!

Okays, so after you select the video, which is the second application, there will be this page.

So you gotta press the start button!

And TADAAAA. the page below comes out! :D

You gotta provide a full face photo .

Dont worry even if you look ugly, try it out.

cause what comes out might interest you alot?

Take a look at the video. Yeah, it would have been quite cool without my face.
Sorry i spoiled it lurhs! HAHA, but try it out , you can put your pretty/handsome face & instead of seeing me, you see yourself. Isn't thaat much more cooler and something you will like to keep.
Imagine yourself staring in a movie like this, woah.
You dont need to use your imagination anymore, cause you can view it with this video application (:

Synopsis of the movie:

Sam Flynn (Hedlund), a rebellious 27-year-old, is haunted by the mysterious disappearance of his father Kevin Flynn (Bridges), a man once known as the world’s leading video-game developer. When Sam investigates a strange signal sent from the old Flynn’s Arcade — a signal that could only come from his father– he finds himself pulled into a digital world where Kevin has been trapped for 20 years. With the help of the fearless warrior Quorra (Wilde), father and son embark on a life-or-death journey across a cyber universe — a universe created by Kevin himself that has become far more advanced with vehicles, weapons, landscapes and a ruthless villain who will stop at nothing to prevent their escape.

Website: www.disney.com.sg/tron

I have been wanting to watch this movie like everytime i see the advertisement.
super coolxz movie, filled with actions and stuffs.
Sorry, do i sound tom boyish? Hahas, but i really like this type of movies.
The best part, it will be available in 3D ! how awesome can it be man!
AND obviously the story plot have to be interested and stuffs rightieeeee!
From the trailer and stuff, woah. It's pretty interesting!
so i really really wanna catch the movieee <3
go try out the application, i bet you will wanna watch the movie too!

2010-12-10T01:04:00.000+08:00

today, rush home after pacc cause had to iron my clothes for work today~
amazing thing i did today.
i got down the bus, was rushing alot because only had half an hour to prepare and stuffs.
so this lady was walking normally and i felt that i was walking normally too >.<
but in the end, i step till her slipper!
HAHA, and she dint realise until she go walk quite far, so i kick the slipper over to her :x
and i tried to walk super fast to avoid her-.-
In the end, i got onto the same lift as her!
Super awkward ttm la.

Ytd watch rapunzel with jason !
it is super funny and i recommend all of you to go and watch it :D
hehees!

just ate some stupid thing that i made, idk how i manage to eat so much.
cause it really taste horrible :x
anyway dad's being f-nagging again.
Telling me to better stop working and study-.-
WTF, i just went back to work, and and and i dont have allowance-.-
IF I DONT WORK THEN HOW?!
DONT WANT GIVE ALLOWANCE, DONT WANT ME GO WORK.
WHAT YOU WANT FROM ME.
ASSHOLE

CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE

2010-12-08T01:31:00.000+08:00

a new look for my blog!
it looks kinda ugly on internet explore, but cool no google chrome.
So peeps, change to google chrome and view aye! <3

my blog might get boring as i'm gonna go back to work this thurs :(
GEEXZ.
tiring but there will be munneyyyyy!
meeting jason tmr to watch rapunzel! Yippe aye aye .
will come back with a review on how it was (:
Love you peeps!
Sleep tight aye , dont catch a cold.
Otherwise your night will be as horrible as mine :x

I loved you

2010-12-07T02:02:00.000+08:00

I loved you.
I really do.
I feel like a fool.
But still i loved you.
Yea, i keep saying i'm a retard for loving you.
But i think.
If you come back to me right now, i'll still accept you.
Geexz. maybe we never know if we never try?
who cares. time will sort out everything.

well, to put that aside.
met jason ng -.-
that stupid old uncle!!
KEHKIANG LAAAA.
never train still go and run.
act la , 42km somemore.
okays, 42.195km. -.- HAHA
you made me think today.
after you say your ex call you and what you did to her!
Will that happen to me if i call him too? ):
forget it. I should start studying my econs man!!

JUJU - 素直になれたら

2010-12-05T01:30:00.000+08:00

wanted to post juju's " trust in you"
but couldnt find it on youtube.
and this was the best alternative.

anyway i like this portion.
傷つくことが怖いから
(i am scared of getting hurt)
次の約束もできないまま
(that's why i still cant make the next promise)
またねって、手を振ると
(when i wave my hand, to say good bye)
泣きたいくらい切なくなるのはなぜ？
(why do i become so lonely that i want to cry)
※いつだって本当はずっと　I wanna say I love you
(all the time, the truth is)
でも戸惑うばかりで過ぎていくね時間だけ
(but i keep hesitating, with only time passing)
君のすべてになりたくて
( i wanna be your everything)
信じてたいの※
(i wanna continue believing)

Kinda reflect me? Hahas. geexz. what am i doing again
* FORGET FORGET*

2010-12-04T19:41:00.000+08:00

was super hungry ytd even after my dinner.
so i ate 2 apple!
Anyway the apple is quite small, okays.
oh ya, watch " 16 wishes"
like 2 days before.
AND NOW I HAVE A SUPER HUGE CRUSH ON jean-luc bilodeau
I shall share his photo with you all to let you share the joy

CUTE RIGHTXZZZXXZZZZZ~!
so let's all be a fan of him <3
freaking cutexzzzzzzxxzzzz.
oh and i watched "Knucklehead" ytd.
It was damn nice la.
2 must watch for all you peeps aye! <3

I killed a ...

2010-12-03T01:51:00.000+08:00

I feel sad right now ):
i seriously feel sad
i dont know, is the world pushing me to tell the truth.
I really dont want to tell.
But they cause my old scars to open up, really open up.
I'm in a bad mood now, because of them. Thankyou
you experience more than me?!
TELL ME THAT AFTER YOU BLOODY KNOW WHAT HAPPEN TO ME.
i seriously cant tolerate you shitholes.
I went through humongous pain and you say this to me.
Now i fret, even at the sight of a needle .
It was m-f painful and i really hated it, I hated everything.
I did my best to forget everything, i thought i manage to.
I was about to, and you guys have to come compare with me that what you experience is much more than me ?
I put up a fake face, it turned real over time.
And now you want to take it away again. Go on.
Let me live in misery, i will continue being a pathetic shitxzzxxxzzzzz.
I hate you two, go and die seriously.
Takes for ruining my efforts, i shouldnt have even try to cheer you up.
I brought hurt to myself, tons of it.
Thats for caring for someone, i learn the lesson.

MUSUEM PHOTO

2010-12-02T19:13:00.001+08:00

ohyaaaa, and the musuem dinner photos!!
sorry, i lazy to put all! HAHAH, go my fb see those photos i was tagged in lurhs :D

HELLLOOOOO

2010-12-02T19:03:00.000+08:00

hello blogpeopleeee~
sorry for being absent from my blog for so longggg.
but well, today i am here to blog, blog, blog :D
made a new friend " Priscillia" (not sure if its spelled that way) today!
She was from Hogc, and same lecture hall as me for pacc and econs.
it was kinda stupid la, the way we become friends!
I was waiting for thaleia outside starbucks (yishun)
and i saw pris standing outside too, she smiled to me.
So i approached her and ask her if she was from Hogc , she said yes!
I knew it ! From day 1 i was in the same lecture hall with her, i knew i saw her in church before!
Well, and we decided to queue for starbucks tgt.
Queued, thaleia came.
And after a while, a starbucks staff approach us and ask us if we were interested in a quiz.
Hahas, we participated and won one free drink voucher!
COOL SHITXZZZ OR WHAT!!
so to show you my glamorous voucher
i inserted a photo! MWAHAH. hahahs

Sorry, one of my eye like suddenly got damn pain ytd midnight.
and yea, it kinda looks ugly today!!
But anyway, i am a happy girl today *SMILES*

and i am thinking if i should treat Jason to the drink, but he is always so mean to me. So maybe i'll reconsider! HAAH :D
till the next time, stay tune on my blog. Cause you know

" YAHUI THE MIGHTIEST NEVER FAIL TO AMUSE YOUUUU :D"

2010-11-30T15:44:00.001+08:00

on my way home now (:
went to school at 2, did pacc test and home now!
My pacc tutor let me leave early cause i not feeling well.
From ytd, diarre and vomit.
Maybe is cause i really really cant eat the fish noodle, but i followed the flow :x
idk. I just dont like the fish noodle.
Hope i get well soon! Or else exams how sias :(

2010-11-28T21:52:00.000+08:00

2010-11-27T13:19:00.001+08:00

Omw to work on a sat afternoon! -.-
Work shift 2-7pm!
Closing siakkks, must sweep the floor and mop the floorxzzzz!
Well, nvm (:
Ytd work and work , as per usual!
Had my dinner at workplace with vivian and dexter!
Mwahahaha!
Can't add photos through phone to blog!
So I will add tonight ! (:
Fucking bored la!
My life like fucking no meaning!
Geexz. Hate it

2010-11-27T12:44:00.001+08:00

I'm off to work~
shall blog on my way to workkkk! :D

Things can never be reverse

2010-11-26T09:16:00.000+08:00

If only life was an uno game.
We can skip part of our life, we can reverse time.
I don't know what got into me , but yea.
Kinda sianx now.
maybe its just that i cant cover up anymore that i actually still do miss him.
I dream of him in my dream on the day when i blog so happily that i met "D"
maybe its the place that got me thinking, i have no idea.
I still miss you, i still look at you.
I know i am suppose not to, but yea.
During lectures, i cant help but just look at you.
Even for one glance, thats just all that i need.
Yea, i am a fool for loving a bastard.
And continue being in love when i know he is a bastard, i am seriously even more retarded.
But as you know, love is blind.
Yea, love is blind.
We never think so much of their flaws, until we break up.
When we break up, it comes to light how much we tolerated through out the r/s.
well, who cares seriously.
I guess i gotta move on.
Move on as in forget about him, and not act like!!
SOMEONE HELP ME :(

just let things go the way i want ):

2010-11-25T03:29:00.001+08:00

Today texting with "d" the whole day (:
Actually not whole laa!
He stop replying at 3 plus-.-
I got super pek chek with him around 6 !
Cause he say he was meeting me!
So ite, I just went to sleep!
He called me at around 7.50!
Lucky I felt the vibration
Quickly went down, cause he say he reach alr!
Was kinda shag cause I just woke up than the hair like messy.
Went to 883 to eat.
I ate banmian , he ate you mian!
Told auntie to reduce mine and give him more!
He eat till sweat siaks! And ite he still cnt finish the noodles la!
The noodles were like massive!
He treat me to drinks (:
Left 883, slack under my block and talk like usual.
He told me not to have any feelings for him!
Wahlau eh, worry for what!
I know only crush niahxz!
Still long way to love! (:
But anyway, he is still cute as usual!
And banmian auntie say he shuai.
Last time gid she also nvr say that.
Hahas, read through econs.
Watch a drama and now I'm off to bath!
School starting at 2 tmr!
Shiok Ttm !
I love you all, sleep tight peeps <3

2010-11-23T14:35:00.000+08:00

slept at 12 or 1 ytd, i forgot.
I just remember i went to bed after ending my chat with D.
D says that i am busy everyday!
hahas, okay la. Not really.
Just work everyday! Told my dad to help me ta bau roti prata for today !
MWAAHA<3
waiting for D's reply, i think already 2 hours plus lurhs!
Hate him for always making me wait like always!
but well, I'm meeting him on Wed i think?!
he say he can meet after 6 (:
and wed is my off day!!
oh ya, to think of it wed is tmr!
HAHAAHHA.
I think i am having a crush on him.
Take note, it's crush!
so yea, you have no rights to say that i move on too fast or anything (:

2010-11-22T15:55:00.000+08:00

having stupid itb nowwwww :(
ytd had work till 6.
Ate at kopitiam with charmaine low looking at me eat!
HAAHAHH.
and than reach home around 7 plus plus.
Met D at 7.40 plus (:
was so shock when he said he was already below my block!
Geexz.
Talk and talk with him
I wanted to buy bubble tea and he was lazy at first but he eventually gave in :D
well, talk quite alot.
HAHA. and when i want to go home, he was like "are you sure? "
OHMY, super cutexzz.
And when i walk to the lift.
He was shock, he was like " dont you wanna take the stairs?"
i was like nahhhs, and he said i become real lazy lerh!
last time still will climb up the stairs :x
i dint know he rmb so much!
It was like freaking 2 years back?
>.<
anyway excited and anticipating for his sms! MWAAHAHAHAH

Love is irreplaceable

ADELYN HOSEHBOH!

Legal 18th

October love

the sweetest guy

liars, aint we?

without you

hey, wasn't it you who's always been there for me

a lonely night

it turns out freedom means nothing but missing you

i carved ur name on thebullet so people would﻿ know, u were the last thing going through my head

hey irresponsible bastard (:

To Daryl Koh ChongWei

FM DAY

HECTIC DAY

long break

stupid me

Hard to find

back to childhooodddd~

HI WORLD

Is the world really ending?

Is the world really ending?

LOVE

Just another day

GEORGE YEO

I'm done with you

AWESOME LIFE

crush or not?

Nicole Seah

LIM YIYING

EMO night

CAMP TELANUS

PULAU UBIN

Government's high pay

DAY OUT :D

JAPAN'S EARTHQUAKE ):

SISSY'S BIRTHDAY :D

I AM NUMBER 4

WEE-UUU-WWEEEE

i dont care ~

3years down

Pre-Valentine's day

Eve of V.day

I love you (:

HAPPY CNY PEOPLEEEE !

Love ):

4D

26jan2010

HEY YOH

My future

i've given up hope

TLWJ

Life as it is

A CAMERA WANT!

To make myself pretty (:

ITB !

Open house 2011

hey hoooooo!

A new year . a new start

THIS FUCKING PROSTITUTE

Love

HEY. I AM BACK

MERRY CHRISTMAS

FACEBOOK FUN :D

I Just Had Sex

Sex is frightening

A FUN DAY AT ECP

I love singlehood :D

Fun day with khay

I AM UBER HAPPY

excitedddd

One hell of a day

Super webcammy

The happiness of a only one

Tron: legacy

CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE

I loved you

JUJU - 素直になれたら

I killed a ...

MUSUEM PHOTO

i carved ur name on thebullet so people would know, u were the last thing going through my head